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Paddling Towards a Cure

This article was first featured on Patagonia’s blog, The Cleanest Line. It has been reproduced and edited with kind permission of the writer.

I have epilepsy. I don’t know if I was born with it. The better conclusion is that I developed it from a series of concussions in high school. But truly, no doctor will say for certain. Such is the story of epilepsy. I was diagnosed on my way to my freshman year at the University of California, San Diego.

I don’t intend to bore or scare you with the diagnosis story, other than to say, my first known seizure will always be my scariest seizure because I’d never before awoken to find my terrified parents and a medical unit. And I think that will always be true.

The first doctor I visited asked if I was physically active. Easy answer.

“Yes,” I said proudly. “I surf every day, sometimes twice.”

The doctor shook her head in disgust.

“We will have to change that,” she replied. “That is too dangerous for an epileptic.”

I smirked at my mom, who smirked back. She knew there wasn’t a chance.

“Sorry doc, but if you want me stress-free I can’t be salt-free.”

“It’s true,” my mother confirmed with a smile and a nod.

Man on yellow surfboard on Mavericks wave by Billy Watts
Picture by Billy Watts
Sorry doc, but I surf every day, sometimes twice... if you want me stress-free I can’t be salt-free

In one doctor’s appointment I learned the most important lesson of my epileptic life: “epileptic opportunity.” Turning the disadvantages of epilepsy into benefits for one’s passions. Unfortunately, it took me many years and many seizures to learn how to best apply this lesson to my life. These years and these seizures cost me a lot of headaches, some brain cells and even self-confidence. Worse yet, the cost to my family was a lot of pain, worry and grief. Epilepsy is a wretched condition, but it doesn’t have to define you. Better yet, for some of us, it can be opportunistic, if you let it be.

In November three years ago, while visiting my family for Thanksgiving, I had a series of seizures that put me in the hospital for three days and cost me my driver’s license for six months. The seizures were onset by high levels of stress and a major lack of sleep – two things I had been very lazy to control. After I got out of the hospital, I decided to look back at that first doctor’s visit with my mother and make epileptic opportunity my lifestyle. I added it in ink to my wrist as a daily reminder of my mission not only to correct my epileptic self, but to help other people see when an epileptic opportunity arises.


Summertime in Santa Barbara County is a surfer’s torture –  onshore and flat, all day, every day. If you are someone with dreams of big cold waves, like myself, this is not ideal. If you are someone who simply dreams of surfing every day, this is not ideal. The summer of 2015, I bought a paddleboard to try and combat this problem.

My paddleboard has become the main craft I spend time on. Every morning or afternoon I take that twelve-feet of Tim Robertson-shaped foam and toss it into the ocean to glide for many miles of peaceful training. It’s been a type of oceanic poetry I did not see coming, even when I knew the ocean held more poetry than any human or society could provide.

Then I started planning a paddle from my cottage in Carpinteria to my job at Patagonia in Ventura – a distance of seventeen miles, slightly more than any single paddle I had done. One morning, while enjoying a gorgeous sunrise paddle, an idea popped into my head. What if I made the paddle to work about epilepsy awareness and put it on Facebook Live? As the Social Media Producer for Patagonia, an idea like this made sense. Shifting between knee and chest strokes, I developed my entire livestream plan during that training – promotional copy, asset requests, partnerships.

It’s been a type of oceanic poetry I did not see coming, even when I knew the ocean held more poetry than any human or society could provide.

Man in yellow shorts paddleboarding a flat ocean by Nick Liotta
by Nick Liotta

All of the sudden, a pod of dolphins jumped, one by one towards the south. Stroke after stroke, I looked towards the dolphins. Stroke after stroke, I edged from side to side to connect small bumps. And then, a splash! From the nose of my board, one dolphin leapt.

To my left, another jumped and flipped its tail. A couple of board lengths ahead, one of the leaders road waves with giant swoops, while behind a mother called between us all. Soon, a second dolphin joined the first at my nose and from the Ventura River mouth to C-Street cove they rode on either side of my paddleboard, sometimes jumping over the nose and switching positions, consistently swimming so close I was scared they would touch the board and knock me off. But they didn’t, they just kept amazing me. For a half mile or so, we swam together and I screamed for joy at the top of my lungs.

As I touched shore later that morning, I knew I was onto something good.

I utilised my lunch break to order a LifeProof and a water bottle bracket for my paddleboard that would hold my iPhone. I set some mile markers for the rest of the week to assure myself that seventeen would not only be doable, but easy. I wanted the livestream to be interactive, allowing the social media community to ask me questions on the water.

Man in yellow boardshorts facing a calm ocean, his paddlebard horizontal at his feet  by Nick Liotta
by Nick Liotta
As I touched shore later that morning, I knew I was onto something good... I set some mile markers for the rest of the week to assure myself that seventeen would be doable

Shortly thereafter I contacted the local chapter of the Epilepsy Foundation of America, and got in contact with Nathan Jones. I was worried when I reached out to Nathan because of my previous experience with doctors, epilepsy and surfing. But Nathan was enthusiastic from the start and so were his bosses. They pushed the outdoors aspect and we decided to send my fundraising to the Walk to End Epilepsy because my paddle so similarly aligns with the walk. Soon I was calling Mike Avery, a local paddling friend, to see if he would paddle with me. Mike lent Nathan his boat so he could follow along and share the journey on End Epilepsy’s social channels.

When my alarm went off the morning of the paddle, I was wide awake. As I kissed my beautiful fiancée, a deep hole settled into my stomach. I was about to go onto Facebook Live and do a seventeen-mile paddle, a distance I had never done before. As soon as the hole settled, I looked out to the sunrise and then to the ocean, and found my spot.

“Hey everybody…”


Soon I was on the ocean, the wind was in my face and the screen of my phone was too. Neither of which was too fun but with the cause in mind, it was easy to push forward.

Stroke after stroke, transitioning from chest to knees, I went. And Mike went. And everyone online followed along with nice comments and silly questions. One aunt thought we were close to finishing, but it had been no more than twenty minutes and thus less than two miles. My fiancée kept complimenting my silly faces and others simply complimented how fast we paddled.

All the while, we did our best to focus on the goal at hand. Through bump after bump, the goal felt a little less attainable, but a little more important. And strangely enough, because of this, it became even more fun.

Some five hours and forty-five minutes later, with a very sore back and tired arms and mind, the shore was in sight. My phone had died four hours earlier and Nathan’s had too. No longer were we raising awareness. Now we were just paddling to prove we could – to finish our pledge that seventeen miles for the cause was more than attainable.

Each and every stroke to the shore felt easier than the last. When the sand touched my feet, I surprisingly didn’t feel triumph. Only relief and an odd feeling of balance that had not been there for over six hours.

We did our best to focus on the goal at hand. Through bump after bump, the goal felt a little less attainable, but a little more important.

View of mother ocean over the tip of the paddleboard by Jared Muscat
by Jared Muscat

I will paddle further than seventeen miles soon. It will be for epilepsy and it will be for me. And every paddle is for the cause of enjoying the absolute beauty that is the great Mother Ocean and the complicated effort of paddling for miles upon her. And when the next great paddle does come, I will be even more ready and excited. I hope you will join – either on the livestream or in the ocean.

Turning the Disadvantages of Epilepsy into Benefits for One’s Passions is a core belief for Jared and his epilepsy treatment. Please donate to the Epilepsy Foundation of Greater Los Angeles in support of Jared’s efforts and the fight to end epilepsy.


Full length shot of a man in black wetsuit standing on a seaweed-covered beach, holding an orange surfboard and looking directly at the camera.

Jared Muscat

Jared is the Social Media Producer for Patagonia. When he’s not at his desk you can find him out in the ocean surfing or reading literature written from typewriters. Jared’s three greatest loves are his wife, his family and the San Francisco Giants.

Last Seizure:  February 2018 (tonic-clonic)

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